now i know...
whose heart she goes to....
and what i see and heard, my heart is sososo pain...
feeling of deep depress...
is time to let go...

she'll feel more happier with him...
is time to let go...

no matter how she's my first ever who i love seriously...
prevent serious conflicts and everything...
i choose to let go~
think so many time ad....
is time to let go...

is very difficult for me to let her go and forget her...
very difficult...
but~
i have to let go...

i have to go on!
i have to be tougher than anyone else...
let go~

=(
='(

feeling of guessing is very suffering...
i cant concentrate on my exam...
i cnt tell her right nw because is nt the right time...
lots of ppl chasing her but im nt the very out-spoken type...
defeated...but i just cant give up like tht...
lots of worries... i miss her every second...
i always pray to God and ask him for help...
i hope one day God will answer my prayer... =(

the post again...
my heart break once more...
because i don't know whether her heart goes to him...
the feeling of heart breaking is so suffering...
my heart is pain but i miss her soso much...
i like her smile~ i miss her smile so much~
my feeling to her will never change...

miss her every second...
wanna grab her so much and does not want to let her go...
i dont want to lose her!
but i dun think is the right time, coz is restricted...
=(

Heart-break after the post....

when you love a person, you'll do anything for her and help her in whatever means...
when you love a person, you'll try to understand every parts of her life
when you love a person, you want to be in her life
when you love a person, you will take note in everything she do
when you love a person, you'll wait for her every time she on9
when you love a person, you jealous of other guys she contact with
when you love a person, you want to carry her burden
when you love a person, you want to make her smile
when you love a person, you miss her so so much
when you love a person, you'll be her angel behind
when you love a person, you will be the first one to help her
when you love a person, you'll safe her
when you love a person, your mind is always her
when you love a person, you want to be with her
when you love a person, you want to give the best u can do
when you love a person, you wont mind of everything you do
when you love a person, you want to make her happy!
when you love a person, you want to give her full happiness....

L2M (10/06/2010 -------> 13/06/2010)!!!

I went for an awesome+fantastic+touching+inspiring+wonderful+great+joyful camp of my lifetime. It was called the L2M camp which stands for Lead To Mission. I learnt so much from the camp from all great speakers. The first speaker was the one and only one awesome guy Jude Antoine. He shared about his past and how God transform him from a really bad, evil and heart-stone guy into a total peaceful and wonderful guy. He now become one of the soldier of God. He went round the whole world spread about his past and preach the wonders of God. God really use him as His instrument to spread the world about God's love and truth. Jude thought us that. I learnt how to be dare and courage to be able to say "Yes" to God to ask Him to use me as the instrument to love people just as God loves us. God needs the people like us to spread all His wonders. He wants us to be the evangelizer. To evangelize can be many ways. But one thing for sure we must be faithful, loving, humble to everyone. Especially love to God. The music in the camp, the CHRISM team was wonderful. They played great music. Creating crowds to sing like a team. Everyone was united just with a song. How wonderful it is. Through songs i've learnt to praise and worship God. To be able to repent, thankful,grateful of myself to God. God is always there for us. Just that whether we want to accept Him or not. How bad we are He's always there to help us. Just say "Yes Lord, please transform me, let me be your instrument, let me be your love for i am created by your image" Then He'll be there and transform us miraclly. We need to trust God will transform us. We must believe that God is the way, the truth, the light. God is the only almighty. The only King of everything! He is the game master, the decider, the Healer! God is so great, we can be just like a toy crush easily by Him. But why God always give us choices in our life? because He loves us. He knows what we wants. And is because of His great love, He give us choices and options in life so that we may life with respect, love and independent. Human usually get easily into temptations, sins. Again, God's love is so great that He do not destroy sinners. He transform sinners! That's why He sacrifice His one and only son- Jesus Christ to safe all people. Jesus Christ is the Saviour of the world, the love of the world, the peace, joy of the world. We must be grateful to our Father in Heaven who made very very huge sacrifices. That's why today we must be able to thank God and able to repent our sins. That's why we must be His instrument to spread His word and His love. Through good attitudes, respect, love, humble to everyone is one of the way to evangelize because we touch people by our purest of heart. We must be able to stand out for God. For us, no matter what religion people go. Christian believe that there's only one will safe the world, and that is God. God will safe will people with different religion. Because God will only see the sincerity of human's heart. That's why we must respect the truth religion. I like the music so much in this camp. It really built my mood to glorify and worship God. Thank God for the gift of music. The healing part in the camp makes me feel so peaceful of heart. This session God really heals me. He's always with me. There's one thing that touch my heart. My friend Edmund who first time to participate such big church camp had experience wonderful miracles from God. My friend loves to take photos. So he brought His DSLR to camp. He took lots of photos. Suddenly there's error in his camera. He could not take photos anymore. He was so sad and disappointed. That time we were just finished our sessions with this great speaker-Jude Antoine. Through his sessions he touched Edmund's heart. Edmund prayed so hard to God. I was did not notice he prayed until he told me. He prayed and believe that God will help him to find solution for his camera. He wants to make everyone happy with his camera to take photos with everyone so that everyone enjoyed great memories with his camera. Out of sudden after his prayer he found a solution. He repair his camera according to the thought was in his mind. and that sudden idea has successfully make the camera function again! Praise the Lord! I beleive this camp has touched so much for Edmund. Not to forget me too. haha.. ^^. I hope this camp spirit we had will always be a unending burning flame in our hearts. To serve the church in whatever way we can. To say Yes to God. To surrender everything to God. To feel and show God's love through actions. To search for God in whatever situations we're facing. One thing must remember. God's is always the solutions, love, peace, truth. King of Kings, Lord of Lords. The peacemaker. The lover giver. One Lovely, trinity God. Amen!